Well last nite me and justin spent until 5am in the hospital...My parents were there to be with me n him...Last nite around 8 i guess me n mike started to smell smoke but we didnt know where it was coming from n then we didnt smell it nemore..well joycey got home around 9 n then me n her went to hess to get some tea...but when we got back n walked in the house there was a cloud of smoke and it was smelling so bad..turns out there was carbon monoxide all throughout the house bc the furnace wasnt running right so the ambulance took lil man in to get checked out..THANKFULLY nothing was wrong..but we had a scare...i was so worried..in the last 2 days that baby has been thru so much.. all i seem to do is worry about him...I am so scared that something is going to happen too him..they say that every new mother goes thru it but all i wanna know is when does it end...when can i sleep not wondering if he's goin to be there in the morning or if he's goin to be alive when i wake up..it scares me so bad..idk what i would ever do if something happened to him and I wouldnt be able to have him in my life...I guess its just a new mother kinda worrying thing... Well right now i'm waitin on Michael to call me n tell me that he's off work n then he's coming to get me.. Tomorrow is Mike and I's 1 YEAR ANNIVERSARY!!!! I can't believe we actually made it to a year but i'm so glad that we did...and then Sunday is Mike's 19th BIRTHDAY! He's growing up so fast If neone has a digital camera that they wanna sell for cheap I'm looking into buying one... Right now i'm talking to Ashley Jamison and I just wanna say to her the BEST of luck with you,Ryan and your soon to be son/daughter..you're goin to make a good mom and if you ever need ne advice you just call me n i'll help you as much as you can..Just remember this is goin to be your amazing lil baby and dont ever for one minute doubt that you're a good mother..you're goin to make an amazing mom...love ya girl n good luck! Well i'm goin to write something to Mike n then i'm gunna get going my hand is starting to hurt..  Mike Well.....Lets just say that you and I haven't been having the greatest of days. But that doesn't matter. We still have each other and our amazing son and my amazing soon to be son in law. I love you so much Mike that it's hard for me to put it into words. Lately we've been having our down times bc of everything happening with Justin and just life itself but i'll always be here for you and love you more then nething in the world. You, Justin and Josh are my life. I love you baby. Happy 1 year anniversary. I'm so glad I have you!
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